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August 7, 2008


Triple 8s. Triple the luck triple the fun. As this day marks a very special day on the calendar two events i am aware of would happen this 08-08-08. One is an event i had never gone to before and the other is my comfort zone, a sweet escape i found when i was down and blue but being reborned this time.

I love trance and house music and my hubby is a fanatic too. Not just a fanatic but also  party goer to trance parties. Yes, you got the right thing in mind. Tomorrow will be Big Fish’s God’s Kitchen @ A-Venue in Makati Ave. In as much i am afraid of crowd that i will be going tomorrow, i chose it over my sweet escape. This event is important for my hubby and i will show my support by being with him. This plan of going to big fish was set a month ago and just one more night, it’s the big night @ the big fish. I am anxious because i am not used to go to such parties and such crowd where almost everyone struts their style and fashion and everything else. Hinde kase ako ganun. Ngaun e talagang kinakabahan na ako what could happen tomorrow. I don’t even know what to wear and if what i am thinking to wear is appropriate.   I just hope everything will be fine with my hubs by my side, well, that is to be classified pa, syempre party yuna nd andun lahat ng party friends nya so may possibility talaga that at some points in the event i could be left alone and secluded from the rest. 😦 However, marami nga nagagawa ang pag-ibig sa taong nagmamahal, i will still push through with my hubby tomorrow with the hopes of having a great time together for the first time for a big event.  Here’s the poster for the Big Fish’s God’s Kitchen Worldwide:

First Event Together With Hubby

First Event Together With Hubby

The other event that will be taking place on 08-08-08 will be the launch of Pink Republic Bar formerly known as El Nuevo Boracay 1 found in Tomas Morato. The Pink Republic Bar will be situated in Tomas Morato corner E. Rodriguez Ave., just beside Shell Gas Station. This was my sweet escape before when my previous relationship ended up. I spend nights here drinking and laughing with the performances. After which i gained true and sweet friends here. I would have chosen to go here if it was not 08-08-08 because i had given my word already to my hubby. And my friends just sent the invite to the new bar last monday night after 1.5 months of asking them when will it open. The short notice for me will not work as i will not argue the event with my hubby.  Here’s the Launch poster for PInk Republic Bar, however,  it is dated July 12, 2008. This was the former date that the bar will start operating but was pushed until 08-08-08.

El Nuevo Boracay 1 to Pink Republic Bar

El Nuevo Boracay 1 to Pink Republic Bar

As this day ends, 08-08-08 begins, will i be lucky this day? Will the triple signs of eternity and good luck prove its charm? I dunno. I just wanna be with my hubby.


July 31, 2008

Arriba Letran!!!

Filed under: In a Relationship — khentutz @ 3:24 am
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No. I am not from Letran. I just love the Letran Knights. 🙂 Well, not only because my hubby is a Letranite but because it was also my supposed to be school for college seven years ago.

After not being able to reach the quota courses for UP Dil and Manila and not knowing my future GWA from the UPCAT could be used to get in to other courses, I took two more College Entrance Examinations. UST and Letran. With doubts of not continuing my maternal family trend of getting in and graduating as a Thomasian, i took exams as well in Letran as my backfall. Yes, they are sister schools as others say. If you wondered if i took exams in La Salle or ADMU, i think if i remember correctly i applied for a scholarship in ADMU but i can’t really recall if i passed or not. Maybe not, because if i passed i could have easily remembered it. Anyway, when the USTET results were realeased, i passed for the courses i took and other courses too except for those that would require skill exams. I was torn back then between Letran and UST. Of course my mother insisted to go to UST which is just blocks away from home instead of Letran that requires a little bit of effort to get in the campus.  And so i become a Thomasian. My Letranite side has been forgotten in the past. When my hubby came into my life, he brought back the possibility of becoming a Letran Knight. My hubby was my knight in shining armor that tamed me as a growling tiger. It was also the first talk we had on the on set of our dating and our relationship. The Letran-UST talk paved a way to get to know each other better, meet up, date, and fall in love again and again everyday.

We watched the game together yesterday in Cuneta Astrodome, we were seen several times in video footage of ABS CBN sports channel 23 everytime the Letran crowd gets wild.  I thought by sitting on ring side would spare us from being seen in TV, but no, we were sitted beside hard core fans who does unbelievable yet amusing things that is why the video is always directed to our seats.

Letran had a bad day at shooting, it was not their normal game, it was in the fourth quarter that Letran got their groove back but too late to transcend San Beda Red Lions’ score.  Anyhow, Letran lose gracefully with their pride intact. 6-1 is their present NCAA Season 84 standing still leading the schools for the first round of eliminations. Me and my hubby would definitely watch the 2nd round of eliminations we believe that our knights could win the game next time.  I enjoyed the school spirit of Letran, their trash talks and their cheers. Kudos and Arriba Letran!!!

Attached here is the video of the half time cheer of Letran:

Even though we lost, me and my hubby continued our day together somewhere to chill and enjoy each other’s company. 🙂 For now, i am still cheering for them, Arriba Letran!!!

July 29, 2008

Old School

Filed under: Cheesy, Mushy Me,In a Relationship — khentutz @ 8:29 am
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Long before technology invented online diaries, journal and blogs, sentimental persons keep their record of important events hand written or type written then compiled as a single book/let. It is the same as a blog except that, only those persons whom you show it would have access to it. This old school blog would also be a laugh trip when someone you knew accidentally find it and read it. Well maybe that’s from my perspective.

I used to write diaries before. My first diary was conventional but i didn’t start my entries with Dear Diary, i just wrote the date, the specific moment or outburst of emotions and everything else that i can’t blurt out to anyone. It ranged from great happpenings in school, frustrations, to chit chats with friends, to tampo moments for getting reprimanded, to crushes, to fantasies to escapades and all. What made it special is that, after getting tired of my diary i misplaced it. And kaboom. My evil elder brother keeps on teasing me, i had no idea at first but when it sank in, i knew he read it from my previous diary. And the joke was on me. To add it up, during one of the overnight stays with my high school friends, they found it and read it all at once and memorized all the controversial notes and teased me. Laugh trip it is as i look back on it.

My next accounts of privacy were kept with utmost care. It was not just a diary, it was a stalker’s diary. Yes, i was a stalker before. This particular written document included detailed list about my crushes. OO, marami ako talaga crush nung bata ako. It recorded seemingly moments with my crush. Seemingly because, it may be true or not, what was written was just in my perspective. Just to give you an example, when my crush# 1 happened to look to my direction, i assumed that he noticed me and tried to have an eye contact. True or False? i still don’t know, but the only thing clear is that, i have recorded the times i saw my crush, had nil to little interaction and the hopes of having them as lover or partner. Well that was before.

Another version of my accord is the fling book. Those whom i loved sincerely had their own journals (to date, i only have 3 AT, DM and HUBBY ) The short termed “Syotas” were recorded, puppy love, infatuated relationships, quasi relationships and MUs. What amuses me until know is that i put their name on the list when i have strong emotions for them, and when i look back today, i find myself laughing my hearts out as my description of them was really hilarious. I recall one, “I love AM because he fetches me everyday to school. He brought the best in me because he reviews me before every exam.”

Leading me to the rationale of this post. I was not able to blog again, because my HUBBY made me felt that he deserves his own journal, the old school way. A recorded memory of the times we shared and will stillshare in the future. I lost track of my blog as i wrote everything the old school way.  I decided not to blog more about HUBBY as i would like to keep our relationship private. I felt that whatever intimacy we have, it’s ours and i can’t just share it without his consent. OO, mahirap at effort talaga pero para sa hubby ko e gagawin ko! Un oh. Super cheesy. 😛  Unlike DM, i poured my emotions blogging what we had, although hinde rin lahat, baka kce ma Rated-R ako bigla e. Well lalo pa ngaun with my HUBBY. So if you are wondering where i am this past few days, this is the culprit, my diary for my hubby.  One copy is mine and one copy for him. I love the prints on the notebook. 🙂


Arriba Letran for tomorrow’s game against Beda. Me and my HUBBY will be there 😛

July 17, 2008

Officially Taken

Filed under: Cheesy, Mushy Me,In a Relationship — khentutz @ 8:18 am

Oh Yes! You read it correctly. I am officially taken (again).  But happily taken if i may say. 🙂

After all the drama, the commotion with my previous dates (not in a bad way or sorts, just some kind of misunderstanding), someone finally swept me off my feet and made me feel special the best way he can. So after several, dates, chatting, talking and bonding, WE decided to be official. It was a mutual decision, we looked into the signs of having a relationship and we excitedly answered each one yes, then we looked at each other, smiled and we saw hearts and and kisses from each other’s eyes and the rest was history. Yun oh, cheesy at mushy ako. Am proud of it, and as part of being proud with my hubby, I am letting the world i live in know that i am now taken.

Yes, no vacancies for flirtation and sorts na. Sa mga kumarir at kinakarir ko e, friends na lang tayo. Mukhang hinde rin naman matutuloy sa isang romantic relationship mga pinagsamahan natin e. Talagang MGA ang term ko e, hehehe. We may have clicked and started a spark but not enough to get ourselves in a relationship.

Inspite of all the uncertainty and fear of getting hurt, my hubby and me bravely stepped one step forward to celebrate and enjoy what we share. However, in as much as i wanted to share my hubby name, i opted not to tell you to respect his privacy, although i can tell you his nickname: honey, hubby, mahal, tart, sweetie. hehe 😛

And in fairview to him, hubby was the only one who convinced my naughty gay community accounts to be tagged as taken and tell that i am in a relationship. Yun, mushy na kung mushy.

Hay gusto ko ikwento lahat ng dates namin and mga pinaggagawa before we ended up together. Wala naman x-rated pero tama na ang langit at mga ulap bilang saksi sa aming lambingan kwentuhan at masasayang sandali. Himala, taglish ang post ko, maybe, just maybe, love really moves in mysterious ways.

Hey Hubby, in case you are reading this now. i heart you :*

July 10, 2008

Bitter or Pathetic?

These two are choices when someone is falling in love or already in love. it’s either they become bitter of a relationship or patethic just to have a relationship. OR it’s just me. 😦

There are certain times whenever i am in a circumstance of people in love or on the act of falling in love even my dearest friends, i feel bitter. Disagreeing with their moments of love and instead say that they will fall apart soon and what they share will never last.  I would even suggest that, whenever the other party is not making their presence known, they are with somebody else. Whenever i see a couple looking good together, i say to myself that they are sweet for not but not in the long run. I dunno why am i so bitter at times? maybe because i haven’t had my share of a love that lasted for quite some time? I lost faith in love, that it conquers all? Or simply because i am jealous, that i am single? hmmm.

On the part of being pathetic, sometimes people in love would risk almost everything they had to keep their lovers on their side. So patethic that they (I) will focus their efforts and time on them to build their own world even if they sense their love is about to give up and is taken by somebody else. More pathetic by attributing every event to their partner and make these events as omens of their relationship.

 The only thing that is same for being bitter or pathetic is that you end up losing. Losing a chance to have the best possible future and love. Or losing your loving self and end up not having someone to be your partner, your loved one.

June 23, 2008

Falling In Love The Wrong Way.. edited last part.

After DM and I parted ways, I found myself lost in space and back to my parallel universe. At first, i just wanted to be a drunkard and escape the reality that i was rejected. Okay, i cried. A lot. Then tons of beers and cocktails. Then i started to get out. I thought i retired from the gimik scene but NO, i was into it now. Before, i usually go gimik with straight ones, but now, as i have embraced my sexuality to its fullest extent, i was able to overcome my fear of going into PLU gimik scene. The sweet escape i found was El Nuevo Boracay1 in Tomas Morato (Closed for the whole month of June, in the process of relocating to E. Rodriguez near Fahrenheit).

I’ve met a lot of nice guys/PLUs in the gimik scene, i dated a couple of them for quite sometime and even had a short time relationship with a chinese guy who believes he has a strong personality and gets what he wants all the time. He rushed that i make a commitment with him after 6-7 times of wholesome dating, when i finally said ok, let’s try it out, he then suddenly become cold and asked for a break up. Wheew.

Anyway, I wasn’t that bothered since i just dated him for a couple of times and the relationship is not yet heavily founded. But thanks to him that i realized, i am not in love with the person but with the thought of falling in love and having a partner for life.  Sometimes, i get confused if i love the person or just the thought of having a partner. Maybe that could be a reason why relationships doesn’t work. People get blinded by love, not knowing that they do not really love the person but just the thought of having a relationship, they may be good friends but not as lovers.

As for me, someone is making his comeback, but i dunno yet if love would be sweeter the second time around, i am still dating others (i mean i am open to date invites) and would want to understand more about myself and love. Oh well, as they say, it is better to love and get hurt than not to love at all 😛

Hhmm, i suddenly remembered, where was i last year of the same date? 🙂 A smiled emerged from me and started to sing a love song. Keep bleeding love… 🙂

February 19, 2008

Those were the Days

Looking back on my past and blogging year i had a bunch of emotions and questions on my posts. Admittedly, it was almost about DM and few other persons who have been dear and somewhat special to me. My blogging days stopped the moment a period has been written on my DM blogs. Actually, it is not a period, it was more of an ellipsis(…) the two other periods was just far away from the first one. And from the truest definition of an ellipsis, it denotes that there is more to come. True enough, the story of our friendship went on. New discoveries and insights about each other came out almost everyday. Affirmation and approval came out in a most unexpected circumstance, and from that i was more eager to do whatever it takes to preserve and prolong the bond we shared.

 Our arguments, episodes of drama, and away-bati moments reached its peak. Confrontation and compromised happened. Then we are in good terms again. Soon after the good days, comes our episode again. New topic, new disagreement. With my hopes still alive, we are still doing our best to keep in touch and patch things up. The kilig moments still come but not as frequent as before. Ahhh, those were the days. But being in a social relationship, i am never assured that things will change as planned and as i hoped for. I learned from our past grammy-award winning episodes and i’m religiously doing my best not to do the same old mistakes that almost resulted to a loss of friendship, relationship and companionship.

Those maybe the days of havig too much fun and all, but things and persons change and i should be able to adapt to it and hold on to what i love. You may not be as vocal and expressive on your feelings but your actions and lifestyle lets me know of how much you value the things we share and you too, are willing to adapt to our changing worlds. Thank you for sticking with me and for the things you are doing despite of my knowledge and for subconsciously letting me know that i am very special to you. The period sometime ago opened a new and deeper relationship with you instead of putting our story to an end.

January 10, 2008


Every good thing has its end and for me my DM world ended last Jan. 8. Surprising as it may seem, we wanted different things and now we live separate ways. Just like in a sentence, it usually ends with a period. DM wrote our period already. All i have is the hope that after a period in a paragraph a new sentence will start a new. I’ll miss my baby DM. Period.

October 17, 2007

Of Loving and Loving More

Filed under: Cheesy, Mushy Me,Dream Dates,In a Relationship,Pink Life — khentutz @ 7:53 am

It was a normal workday today until me and my cubemate Karla had a discussion with the progress of our struggle to be happy. Yada yada yada. We conversed on how it is to be in a quasi relationship. And from that i learned and adopted a new philosophy in life. Nakakapagod magmahal at umasa, subalit dapat tandaan na ang pagod ay naipapahinga. Whoa. Karla’s friend was right, we may at some point in time get annoyed of the mediocrity and loving too much, but with just a few breaks or lie-low situations we gain the momentum back and continue to love more. It is not that i am pagod or became mediocre for loving DM but i felt that if in the future i am to encounter it, i know better that all i need is pahinga.

DM and I almost sees and hangs out everyday, more pertinent and serious plans are being tackled, we were able to establish our comfort zone together and grew to be better individuals. The lines of communication are more open than ever and circumstances just unfolds itself for lessons to be learned, compromises to make and the willingness to keep and continue what we started. However, the green-eyed monster in me spoils the fun. At first both of us becomes uneasy of the situation but what i love more about him, he has the capacity to make me feel that we can talk about things, explain the real happening and assure me that there’s nothing to be jealous of. Just like from our other mini-fights, we both learn the harder way, but it becomes a blessing in disguise that proves how much we value each other and our eagerness to continue and hold on together.

Do you think someone deserves your best when he can handle your worsts? I do. Life is fun and cruel, it is about learning and growing up. I am so grateful i found DM.

October 10, 2007


“Iba na lang tawag mo sa akin wag yung bie, ayaw ko yun e” “yun kce tawagan nila xxx at *** e, iba na lang” This phrases will put to retirement the terms of endearment “bie” in my vocabulary.  He may  not be that vocal but his actions tells me something special between us is being shared, or maybe something more special. Face your fear. I did, and once again no guts no glory proved that taking chances can bring more than what you expect. “Sinasabi ko naman kapag ayaw ko d ba?” another phrase that reaffirmed what has transpired before happened because he also wanted it to happen. What we experience lately is something he deliberately wants to happen. Hmm.

 We are spending more time together, more days together, doings things together and weaving fabric of dreams together.  Can i say, this is it! or continue to question this is it? Anyway, it will boil down to having a label of being in a relationship. Being labeled as such may have its benefits however is it really important to be labeled as couples when within yourselves you have a silent pact of staying together?

 Well, back to BIE, this little talk of ours led to affirmations of what we are sharing. He asked his part of questions and i asked mine. We felt a little awkward of the sudden bombardment of intense questions but we kept our composure and answered each other’s query with honesty. Things got clear and we both felt that there are some things should be understood as you see and feel and shouldn’t be analyzed further.

 I have loved a lot of times, got hurt a lot of times but DM makes me love and fall in love each day as if it was the first day we met and bonded. I am happy, contented and grins with a cheerful heart. Off to my pen for now, i’ll be seeing him in a little while.

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