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June 23, 2008

Falling In Love The Wrong Way.. edited last part.

After DM and I parted ways, I found myself lost in space and back to my parallel universe. At first, i just wanted to be a drunkard and escape the reality that i was rejected. Okay, i cried. A lot. Then tons of beers and cocktails. Then i started to get out. I thought i retired from the gimik scene but NO, i was into it now. Before, i usually go gimik with straight ones, but now, as i have embraced my sexuality to its fullest extent, i was able to overcome my fear of going into PLU gimik scene. The sweet escape i found was El Nuevo Boracay1 in Tomas Morato (Closed for the whole month of June, in the process of relocating to E. Rodriguez near Fahrenheit).

I’ve met a lot of nice guys/PLUs in the gimik scene, i dated a couple of them for quite sometime and even had a short time relationship with a chinese guy who believes he has a strong personality and gets what he wants all the time. He rushed that i make a commitment with him after 6-7 times of wholesome dating, when i finally said ok, let’s try it out, he then suddenly become cold and asked for a break up. Wheew.

Anyway, I wasn’t that bothered since i just dated him for a couple of times and the relationship is not yet heavily founded. But thanks to him that i realized, i am not in love with the person but with the thought of falling in love and having a partner for life.  Sometimes, i get confused if i love the person or just the thought of having a partner. Maybe that could be a reason why relationships doesn’t work. People get blinded by love, not knowing that they do not really love the person but just the thought of having a relationship, they may be good friends but not as lovers.

As for me, someone is making his comeback, but i dunno yet if love would be sweeter the second time around, i am still dating others (i mean i am open to date invites) and would want to understand more about myself and love. Oh well, as they say, it is better to love and get hurt than not to love at all 😛

Hhmm, i suddenly remembered, where was i last year of the same date? 🙂 A smiled emerged from me and started to sing a love song. Keep bleeding love… 🙂

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10 Comments »

  1. parang di ka pa rin nakaka move on kay DM ah? Lagi mo kasi syang nababanggit sa post mo. Anyway, enjoy being single!

    Basta problema ko rin ang love. dyuk lang. lol!

    Comment by lonelyheartsclub — June 23, 2008 @ 9:43 am | Reply

  2. isinapuso ko na ang mga words na to:”Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.”

    goodluck sa pagunfold ng second chapter sa lovelife! sana maganda din ang aking momentum ko sa dating scene….

    nagbalik na na!

    Comment by shamashu — June 23, 2008 @ 9:45 am | Reply

  3. at sino naman kaya si Mr. Return of the comeback???

    Comment by mink — June 23, 2008 @ 10:04 am | Reply

  4. @lonelyheartsclub, DM DM DM DM DM. ayan. still about DM. 🙂
    @shamashu, di pa sure ang 2nd time aroung nagfifeeling p lang ako. haha
    @mink hmmm… he’s somewhere here in my blog 🙂

    Comment by khentutz — June 23, 2008 @ 10:15 am | Reply

  5. saan part ng blog… hehehe

    Comment by mink — June 23, 2008 @ 5:52 pm | Reply

  6. @mink it’s for you to find out. If i give out a clue it would be sooooooooooo easy. 🙂

    Comment by khentutz — June 24, 2008 @ 12:44 am | Reply

  7. parang ex-friend ko yung nakashort term relationship mo ah.. weheheh… he was a major a-hole… good thing ur rid of him na rin :f

    Comment by arlo — June 24, 2008 @ 2:51 am | Reply

  8. naks. may comeback ka sa blog mo at may comeback sa lovelife mo rin. 🙂

    Comment by southdude — June 24, 2008 @ 3:37 am | Reply

  9. @arlo. naman not my loss. too aggressive yet not ready.

    Comment by khentutz — June 24, 2008 @ 3:43 am | Reply

  10. @southdude. dahil dyan… edit ko ulit ung post.

    Comment by khentutz — June 24, 2008 @ 3:43 am | Reply


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