khentutz… R-E-A-D-I-N-G

June 25, 2008


Filed under: Desperately seeking answers — khentutz @ 8:51 am

So far after my busy season, I only have 4 confirmed trips to enjoy my low workload season. I wanted to travel and have fun, do you have any ideas of good places to visit and activities to do? So far here are my confirmed trips.

June 28 – Morning Tagaytay Road Trip (Can’t be overnight, white party by gimik night, though i am not sure if i’m going)

July4-6 – Pangasinan / Hundred Islands / Subic Get Away

Oct1-6 Cebu-Bohol Trip

Sometime last week of October or early weeks in Nov. – Singapore Trip.

Suggestions are welcome. I need ideas. šŸ˜›


June 24, 2008

One Night Only

LSS fever. I was singing this song since the storm/typhoon Frank hit Manila. One night only, one night only. Although i am not sure of what am i asking for this one night. Maybe, one night of a wholesome date, one night of swimming, one night of DVD marathon, or one night of intimacy. I dunno. And so I searched for the lyrics of the song as it might help me figure out why do i sing this song over and over again.

I got this one

You want all my love and my devotion
You want my loving soul right on the line
I had no doubt that I could love you forever
The only trouble is I really don’t have the time

I’ve got one night only
One night only
That’s all I have to spare
One night only
Let’s not pretend you care

Then i laughed. During my LSS all i can sing is one night only, one night only and now i sang the whole song. I think i had this song on my mind over and over again because i can love a personĀ i choose to loveĀ but i don’t have the time as of the moment and all i can offer is just one night. Hmm. I had several names in my headĀ but iĀ can’t seem to figure out who he is. Am i this insensitive nowadays??? SomeoneĀ likes me but i am clueless and just offersĀ one night of my life???Ā Sino kaya sya… Baka ikaw yun. Hehe. Kung ikaw man, send me a message. šŸ˜›Ā Or may be i am convincing myself that i am not falling in love and just wants a one night stand. Hmmm.

June 23, 2008

Falling In Love The Wrong Way.. edited last part.

After DM and I parted ways, I found myself lost in space and back to my parallel universe. At first, i just wanted to be a drunkard and escape the reality that i was rejected. Okay, i cried. A lot. Then tons of beers and cocktails. Then i started to get out. I thought i retired from the gimik scene but NO, i was into it now. Before, i usually go gimik with straight ones, but now, as i have embraced my sexuality to its fullest extent, i was able to overcome my fear of going into PLU gimik scene. The sweet escape i found was El Nuevo Boracay1 in Tomas Morato (Closed for the whole month of June, in the process of relocating to E. Rodriguez near Fahrenheit).

I’ve met a lot of nice guys/PLUs in the gimik scene, i dated a couple of them for quite sometime and even had a short time relationship with a chinese guy who believes he has a strong personality and gets what he wants all the time. He rushed that i make a commitment with him after 6-7 times of wholesome dating, when i finally said ok, let’s try it out, he then suddenly become cold and asked for a break up. Wheew.

Anyway, I wasn’t that bothered since i just dated him for a couple of times and the relationship is not yet heavily founded. But thanks to him that i realized, i am not in love with the person but with the thought of falling in love and having a partner for life.Ā  Sometimes, i get confused if i love the person or just the thought of having a partner. Maybe that could be a reason why relationships doesn’t work. People get blinded by love, not knowing that they do not really love the person but just the thought of having a relationship, they may be good friends but not as lovers.

As for me, someone is making his comeback, but i dunno yet if love would be sweeter the second time around, i am still dating others (i mean i am open to date invites) and would want to understand more about myself and love. Oh well, as they say, it is better to love and get hurt than not to love at all šŸ˜›

Hhmm, i suddenly remembered, where was i last year of the same date? šŸ™‚ A smiled emerged from me and started to sing a love song. Keep bleeding love… šŸ™‚

June 16, 2008

Hoping to Come Back

Filed under: Desperately seeking answers,Rumbles and Grunts — khentutz @ 9:35 am

The title says it all. I missed blogging. Looking back at my last posts before i disappeared, many relevant stories were not included. And as i try to make my come back, here are questions i would want to find answers soon.

Are Spa’s really a place to hook up and not a place to relax?

Due to stress and my curiosity, i tried several Spas and Bath houses, both straight and specialized ones, to try out what happens there and to divert from my usual lazy option to have home service massage. Out of all the massage therapists who gave me a massage, only two are worth commendable for the massage (The pressure and strokes are good enough and is very relaxing). The other therapistsĀ can give you a so-so massage and an offer to a fast-way ticket to heaven not to mention the price to pay for using the passing lane to temporary happpiness. As for the trip to heaven, i suggest you to use your on discretion and proceed at your own risk. When iĀ  tried the spas, i thought the extra thing wouldn’t be offered. Well, it’s a half truth, in straight spas, extra service is not offered but is prevalent inside the wet area, especially on the farthest shower corners, side corners of the sauna room, and somewhere beneath jaccuzi. It starts with a glance, the the 2nd look, the smile, the nod and then either you talk, touch or turned down. So the extra service does not happen in the spa/massage room but in the wet area where everyone is naked. However, on gay scene bath house/spas, the moment you get in, tons of cuties are lookign at you and a manager welcomes you and would ask your preference of massage and your choice of therapist. I once got victimized by my ignorance, that i chose a body scrub with Turkish Bath, (not knowing what it is) and subconsciously the unthinkable (save your comments, i don’t want to hear it) happened šŸ˜› What i am saying is that on the gay scene, massage is not the real service offered but rather used as a cocealment of hooking up. Do we really need to have sex to feel relaxed?Ā I go to massage spas to have my stressed muscles a breather and relaxed. I all i need is hook up to feel relaxed, i should have not gone to the spa nor asked someone i don’t know to come over the house and avail of massage and extra services in one blow. The internet is a cheaper means of hooking up. Maybe because this is the trend, to be discreet and be model like to everyone, so when the time comes when others ask what you did, you could the massage as an escape goat for hooking up. Hmm. What do you think? are Spa’s really a place to hook up? i beagn to think SPA = Sexual Pleasure Area.

That’s it for now, see you around. I’m off home.

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