Over my despair to watch Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix, i agreed to meet up with an online acquaintance with hopes of watching a film i frustratedly want to watch. The evening went late and no confirmation still from E. I lost hope already, around 1030 pm E texted and wants me to meet him up at Starbucks P. Ocampo in Taft Avenue. Even though i resisted to go out, i kept my word of meeting him. We didn’t watched harry potter all we did was sip coffee inside the store. He didn’t fulfilled his promise that if we would meet we will settle on a place where i can sit and smoke as many sticks as i want. Strike 1. I opened the conversation by introducing my background and asking his background if he is comfortable with it. He discussed his calling as a curator of art films and other productions. We have a common online acquaitance and he became our topic. After the talk about our common acquaintance, silence came. I was unusually quiet, maybe brought about by the frustration of not seeing the movie. He can’t find any topic. We sat in silence for about 26 minutes. I was bored. Strike 2. E felt weary that i am bored he then noticed the activities of the students in the cafe. I blurted out my own remark and i was surprised when E said that he was disappointed and hates bitchy remarks. Grrr. All i said, was “i don’t care what they’re doing as long as they don’t bother me” He gave his hate speech on how people could be nice and be not bitchy. Strike 3. Now I am mad. I replied, “isn’t it you’re the one bitching around and not me as you tell i’m such a bitch”? He argued that being frank and bitch are different things and for him it’s the choice of words. he’s just frank and im a bitch. Grr..
I just kept quiet after that until he asked me if i wanted to go home. i hurriedly replied yes.
Over the weekend except for saturday night when i finally watched harry potter with my cousins but on my accounts, i pondered if i am really a bitch. So i sought four different words somehow same in way or another and their meaning so as to know if i am really a bitch. According to the online dictinary.com,
BITCH (slang) a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person
-what i said may not be pleasant to the ears but it has no malicious intent nor i am a selfish person. hence, i can’t be a bitch by definition.
FRANK (adjective) direct and unreserved in speech; straightforward; sincere; without inhibition or subterfuge; direct; undisguised
- my statement does not qualify for this as well, i was not sincere nor straightforward not one of the students heard what i said
TACTLESS (adjective) bluntly inconsiderate or indiscreet
- what i said was discreet enough not be heard by others, i wasn’t incosiderate of the situation
VULGAR (adjective)characterized by ignorance of or lack of good breeding or taste; indecent; obscene; lewd; lacking in distinction, aesthetic value, or charm; banal
- saying i dont care about others does not prove any of the definition of this word. i didn’t even mention obscene words.
Thus, i am not a bitch. It was just a pure remark and an exercise of freedom of speech. Though i am not saying i have never been a bitch or any of the aforementioned words, i tried living those words but at the moment with E, i was not bitching around. No more second dates or further moments with E. If a simple remark appeared to be bitching around what more else if he sees me full of emotions or fired up with disgust???
Along our short conversations, i felt he is not just conceited, he praises himself as a good person by telling others how bad they are. He may be right i may be a bitch with my delivery, but who cares if i am a bitch???





